1,156.0 miles will be what separates me from where I grew up and have family starting in July of 2019. I am headed to Ames, Iowa to pursue my dreams and inch a little closer to my goal. Hockey continues to bring me amazing opportunities, I can sit here and talk about what the game has done for me in the last five years but we’ll save that for another time. Heading to Iowa to be the head coach (plus other “job labels”) of the Varsity program for the Ames Little Cyclones hockey team is just another step in the right direction.
I first and foremost want to thank the AMHA Committee and Fred Van Bergen for believing in me and seeing something a lot of other coaches and programs did not see. I applied to upwards of 70+ hockey jobs in the past six months, Graduate Assistant coaching jobs, assistant coaching jobs, player development, assistant athletic director roles. You name it, if it was on AHCA website or a career site, I probably applied. As well to the Potomac Patriots 14UAA parents and players for believing in me and taking a shot on me to be your kids coach this past season. A huge thanks is owed to that team for opening my eyes to so much more in life.
Many that know me, may be saying I can’t ever stay in one place, or I bounce around all over the place. I except a lot of negative remarks with this decision and a ton of confused looking faces when I tell loved ones and friends. But, the main reason I decided to sit down and write this was for those who may be thinking or see things like I am.
First off, I do not need anyone’s approval to go after my dreams and do something I am passionate about. Neither should anyone need someone else's approval for anything they want to do in life. Secondly, I am an all-in or nothing type of person. I cannot do something I do not have a STRONG desire for. For as long as I could remember I have always been a person to do things differently, trust myself, have confidence in myself and not let others sway my views. Numerous times I have been told that I wear my heart on my sleeve. If you have seen or see me in a competitive setting I will typically be the most enthusiast and hungry person out there.
Now, to those who see eye to eye with me will probably be able to relate to this and those who do not I am sorry. I am not for everyone I like to say, I can’t and will not try to please everyone. But those who are close to me and I care for, know I’d run through a wall for them. And anybody who believes in me and supports me I will do anything for.
That is one of the many reasons I am making the move out to Iowa. The AMHA committee showed they believed in me therefore I will prove them tenfold they made the best decision of their life. Like I said I am definitely not for everyone, but I believe in stepping outside your comfort zone, failing and being so uncomfortable you are forced to learn to be comfortable. I believe there is no such thing as good enough. I could of took a different job that was “good enough” to me and in the eyes of others. But for me there is no good enough, there is good, great, unstoppable (Thank you Tim Grover). And I am on a mission to be undeniable and go all in on what I am passionate about and truly love.
For those who may not see eye to with me. Just take a quick second to think about this. Every morning when I wake up and before I fall asleep I always think about how important it is to live a life with purpose and living a life with purpose is what I tell myself I am going to do everyday. My purpose is different than yours and everyone has a different purpose. But without a purpose you will let life drag you by, each day will have no meaning or purpose and in the bigger scheme of things you will be living a life with no purpose or direction. When that happens you falter easily, you sub come to life’s pleasures easily. You look for quick gratification more frequently. So while my purpose may be different and it may lead to roads I never imagined, at least I can say I have a purpose. That is more than most people can say. What is your purpose? Do you even have one? So many people wake up everyday, stay in their easy, comfortable life, head to their easy-going job, and do it all over again without actually having a true direction or purpose in life. That is not for me.
Sure, it won’t be easy being 16 hours by car and 5 hours by plane from my loved ones, former players, former teammates, friends, my dog, etc. But life is not meant to be easy. If you want to stay in your bubble and have an easy life, so be it. Don’t say I didn’t tell you so when you look back in life thinking about all the regrets, the could of’s and the should of’s. Sorry but for me, there are no regrets. I will pursue my passion wholeheartedly or die trying. Some of you may not agree or call me crazy, that is fine. Some of you may be saying negative things about me right now and that is ok. Just before you judge at least get to know my why to all this. Again, I know who I am, I know where I am going and I know what I need to do to get there. I don’t expect everyone to understand, so you’re either in or in the way. For those who are in, I can guarantee they will be very thankful later in life.
Now, to Iowa. Where the work is just getting started.
Before you click the exit button. Do me a favor and answer that question under my name....
What are you doing for your future?